Well, it's about 1:45 a.m. and I'm sitting at my computer unable to fall asleep. Maybe it has to do with catching a quick nap earlier this evening, but I think probably my lack of shut eye comes from an earlier conversation, or lack of one, with my mom.
As I have written before on this blog, mom is 97 and has increasing dementia. She lives in a nursing home six hours south of my home in Pittsburgh. When the initial decision was made where to move mom when she could no longer take care of herself in assisted living, the family chose to leave her in Virginia where I was raised and my siblings and their families are located. We also considered possible visits from church members along with extended family members.
Fast forward to four years later. Mom is still residing in a nursing home, she is totally blind, she is unable to walk or move around on her own and the dementia is slowly taking more of her memory. It's impossible to describe how this disease has slowly taken my mom and how hard I've tried to make this journey easier for her. I guess there is only so much you can do when you live six hours away and can only make monthly trips. Sitting in the nursing home now consists of basically watching her sleep until about 4 in the afternoon when she wakes up. At that point, we might have a better chance of a favorable visit.
I've commented often how my Mama can pray and I've video taped her doing so. Her communion with the Lord Jesus has not been erased by this disease. She might forget who I am, but she still knows Jesus. I pray that will be my legacy as well. The point of this blog is not to pile on sympathy, but to ask that you remember all those caregivers and family members who are dealing with loved ones living through various health conditions. God is mighty. God sees what is happening. God understands our pain and sorrow. He hears my mother's wailing and crying as a lost child not knowing where she is at times. I can't explain why this is happening, but I know from God's Word that weeping only lasts for a night, but joy comes in the morning. Mama's joy will come and she will forever leave behind the shackles of pain, blindness, immobility and confusion. What a day that will be! Until then, God grant us the ability to pray, to care, and to extend to our loved ones the help and assistance they need.
God bless, my friends....I think I'll head back to bed!
And My God Shall Supply All Your Need According To His Riches In Glory By Christ Jesus.